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If you really knew me...
You would know,
I am really kinda shy in real life and
I am shy because of my stuttering.
People in my classes always say:
"Oh, it's ok, I stutter too!"
And that's makes me mad because
they don't stutter as bad
as I stutter but I never say anything.
I just smile and doodle on my notebook or whatever.
You would know,
I'm going through a hard time right now.
But I'm much better than I was yesterday,
and the day before yesterday.
You would know,
I'm the most sensitive and moody person ever.
When PMS comes around you don't
want to be living with me. I get frustrated really easily,
I usually don't show it but it's there.
I bit my tongue a lot.
You would know,
my dad buys me stuff for his affection.
Sometimes I let him, when I really need things my mom
can't afford, like a new laptop.
You would know, a lot of the guys I talk to
usually just want me for my body or are friends
with me for a little while
then move onto the the popular pretty girls.
You would know, I envy the popular pretty girls.
I do NOT hate them, I've been in classes with
most of them and they're nice and funny,
I just envy them and everything they have
and all the boys they are friends with.
You would know,
I honestly don't really like my friends in RL.
I know they accept me but I wish the people
I wanted to be accepted by accepted me.
You would know,
I hate being in this darn condo.
I don't like my stepdad.
I think my Mom is just marrying my stepdad
for certain ridiculous reasons.
I don't really want to go to the wedding
next year because by then I'll feel
like I really lost my Mom.
You would know,
I cried so much in the past few days,
my eyes are dry and red.
You would know,
I don't really know what the hell I want to be.
I want to be writer somedays.
But then I don't.
I want to an actor somedays,
but I stutter.
I want to just work in a preschool,
but Mom doesn't like that.
You would know,
I've been counting down the days for my prince charming, haha.
You would know,
I'm home alone most of the time because everyone
in my household has a life except me.
You would know,
I try really hard with life in general.
I try hard with certain people.
I try to hard to make everyone happy.
And I do believe I am funny.
Not to be stuck up or anything, though.
You would know,
I hate facebook.
Everyone's talking about how their going to Europe,
or to the Warped tour tomorrow (which I really wanted to go to).
Everyone has the nicest pictures with their friends.
You would know,
I'm really tired of people judging me,
and not giving me a second chance.
Sometimes, I really need that person
to be in my shoes.
You would know,
if you read this whole thing, I am impressed and off to finish my cleaning spree around the house to get my mind off of somethings.
You would know,
I am really kinda shy in real life and
I am shy because of my stuttering.
People in my classes always say:
"Oh, it's ok, I stutter too!"
And that's makes me mad because
they don't stutter as bad
as I stutter but I never say anything.
I just smile and doodle on my notebook or whatever.
You would know,
I'm going through a hard time right now.
But I'm much better than I was yesterday,
and the day before yesterday.
You would know,
I'm the most sensitive and moody person ever.
When PMS comes around you don't
want to be living with me. I get frustrated really easily,
I usually don't show it but it's there.
I bit my tongue a lot.
You would know,
my dad buys me stuff for his affection.
Sometimes I let him, when I really need things my mom
can't afford, like a new laptop.
You would know, a lot of the guys I talk to
usually just want me for my body or are friends
with me for a little while
then move onto the the popular pretty girls.
You would know, I envy the popular pretty girls.
I do NOT hate them, I've been in classes with
most of them and they're nice and funny,
I just envy them and everything they have
and all the boys they are friends with.
You would know,
I honestly don't really like my friends in RL.
I know they accept me but I wish the people
I wanted to be accepted by accepted me.
You would know,
I hate being in this darn condo.
I don't like my stepdad.
I think my Mom is just marrying my stepdad
for certain ridiculous reasons.
I don't really want to go to the wedding
next year because by then I'll feel
like I really lost my Mom.
You would know,
I cried so much in the past few days,
my eyes are dry and red.
You would know,
I don't really know what the hell I want to be.
I want to be writer somedays.
But then I don't.
I want to an actor somedays,
but I stutter.
I want to just work in a preschool,
but Mom doesn't like that.
You would know,
I've been counting down the days for my prince charming, haha.
You would know,
I'm home alone most of the time because everyone
in my household has a life except me.
You would know,
I try really hard with life in general.
I try hard with certain people.
I try to hard to make everyone happy.
And I do believe I am funny.
Not to be stuck up or anything, though.
You would know,
I hate facebook.
Everyone's talking about how their going to Europe,
or to the Warped tour tomorrow (which I really wanted to go to).
Everyone has the nicest pictures with their friends.
You would know,
I'm really tired of people judging me,
and not giving me a second chance.
Sometimes, I really need that person
to be in my shoes.
You would know,
if you read this whole thing, I am impressed and off to finish my cleaning spree around the house to get my mind off of somethings.
