And you dropped the note and we changed key
You changed yourself and I changed me
I really didn't see us singing through this
Then you screamed the bridge
And I cried the verse
And our chorus came out unrehearsed
And you smiled the whole way through it
I guess maybe that's what's worse
If you knew me, you'd know I can't relate to anyone, really. You'd know I can't eat certain foods because of the way they feel on my tongue. You'd know I love holding hands more than anything in the world.
You'd know my parents fight a lot more than a married couple should, and you'd know I just want them to divorce each other so they can be happy. You'd know I'd give up my private high school and college education if it would relieve my parents' stress and financial worries. I'd kill myself if it meant they could collect my life insurance and use my college fund for my sisters or paying off any debts they owe.
You'd know I'm rarely happy. You'd know I laugh at the stupidest things, and you'd know I have the most annoying laugh that sounds like I'm hiccuping over and over and over. You'd know I want nothing more than to read a book or type away a story on my laptop.
You'd know I have a notebook filled with quotes and song lyrics from my favorite bands and rants from yours truly. You'd know it's a black and white composition notebook, and when you open the first page, it's a sketch of an "I <3 NY" design. But inside of NY, it says JC for Jesus Christ. And underneath the sketch in parentheses it says "But he loves me more".
You'd know I abhor math and science. You'd know my GPA sucks monkey balls. You'd know I'm incredibly scared about the future, so scared I don't even know if I'll be able to handle what comes in the next few years. You'd know I can't watch scary movies because I'll have nightmares for days.
If you really knew me, you'd know I have a best friend (who I call Kyle) that I'd marry if it meant being able to hang out with him for the rest of my life. You'd know there are only two weeks (not consecutively, just added days) that I haven't been with him this summer. You'd know I'm only fully and completely comfortable being alone or with him.
You'd know I love Chinese and Mexican (traditional, not the crappy kind from Mexican restaurants like Chevy's or Nacho Mama's). You'd know that not a day goes by that I don't eat at least an ounce of peanut butter. You'd know my weakness is saltwater taffy and hard candies.
You'd know I plan on saving sex for marriage. You'd know I don't believe in murdering unborn babies. You'd know I'm Catholic, and when I'm alone I sometimes talk to God. I don't know if he's listening, but I figure it's worth a shot.
If you really knew me, you'd know I cry for my mom every night because she seems so unhappy sometimes. You'd know my mom is the strongest person I know. You'd know she's my hero, she's beautiful, and I want to be just like her when I grow up.
If you really knew me, you'd know I have absolutely no plan for my life. You'd know I don't have any talents besides writing. You'd know I'm extremely hard on myself, but I'm a constant under-achiever. You'd know all I want to do in my life is be happy.
"When adults say, "Teenagers think they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail."
— John Green, Looking for Alaska
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