by chronic Sun Aug 08, 2010 1:57 pm
Chapter One.
Summer. My favorite time of the year. Sometimes I'll just lay there in the grass and smell everything around me.
I love the smell of freshly cut grass. I even love the tickle on my leg that I feel when small bugs crawl all over me.
I imagine that I am some sort of huge natural being that draws their interest in easily. I guess that's what all people
are, I'm just one of the few who is okay with accepting it. Whenever Melissa and I have a picnic, she always wears
pounds of bug spray on her skin to ward off the 'menacing pests'. I guess that's what I love about her: how different
she is from me. While I could spend hours just sitting there, she needs to constantly move, whether it means taking
a walk or jump roping or jogging on a treadmill. I suppose it is good for me to move, it's a way to burn calories, but
I just don't see the joy in it. When you move, you can't notice the little things. One of my favorite things to do when
I'm alone is to sit on a bench in the middle of the main street in our town and just watch the pedestrians. I especially
love it when I see a small toddler with a leash around them. I don't know why, but such a sight sets me into the most
uncontrollable giggles. I could only imagine myself at that age and picturing my parents placing a leash around my
small waist. I would probably sit there calmly while they pulled me, dragging my butt on the sidewalk pavement.
I'm weird. Yes, I can just go out and say it. I'm weird. At school, when people pass me in the hallway, I am usually
on the receiving end of confused looks. During lessons, I'll raise my hand and contradict my teacher in every way
possible, even if I know that I am wrong. I just like to see how the teacher reacts. I love to argue and to express my
opinion, but I guess people just wish I'd shut up so that they could learn what they need to know for the test and go
home. When I meet a person, the last thing they will find out about me is my name, which is an oddity in itself. The
name on my birth certificate is Amazonsia, but I make people call me Amazons. Or just Amazon. Usually if I hear
the 'Amaz' part, I won't pay attention to the rest, knowing that they are talking to me. Unless of course they say
'Amazing', then I sound narcissistic. That was a joke. I joke around a lot, but people don't really laugh. I suppose
when you try to be funny, that is when you are not. People laugh when I'm serious and sometimes I'll just play it
off as if it was a joke, but it wasn't. I just don't want them to feel stupid and I enjoy knowing I can make people
laugh. I babble a lot and ramble, and sometimes completely forget what I was talking about in the first place. I
don't really know who I am yet, but I'm going to be a junior, which is the most stressful year of high school, so I
guess I'll know soon. I don't know, for now I'm just trying to enjoy the summer. 
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