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If You Really Knew Kristen...
If you really knew me...You'd know that I imagine my future and having a perfect life alot.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I don't love my dad, and will never forgive him for tearing me apart during my entire life.
If you really knew me...You'd know that most of my friends here suck, and that I constantly wish that my TCO/ RV friends lived in my town and that I got to see them.
If you really knew me...You'd know I am jealous of my sister.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I wish I could re-do some parts of my life.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I'm shy. I'm awkward about talking and usually don't talk to new people unless they talk to me first. That I am usually the listener, not the talker.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I love riding more than anything. That when I horse back ride, there is nothing that can ruin my mood. I feel like I can do anything, and go anywhere. You'd also know that I haven't gotten on a horse in a year, because my family has been low on money.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I've been the girl who had no friends. The loner who sat at her own lunch table. The girl who had to see her middle school counselor because she was damaged over her old friends ditching her, and being mean to her.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I've gotten over that, but, am still sensitive about it. Because the friends that ditched me, are now some of my closest friends.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I'm a peacemaker. Between my parents, my friends, and family.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I have a boyfriend. But, not just any kind of boyfriend, or relationship. He lives in Wisconsin. Miles away from me, and we have never met. I'm not ashamed because I know he is real, and I know that he will always be here for me. You'll know that I love him, more with each passing day.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I have a big concience. I hate wrong-doing, and always feel guilty for the littlest things.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I believe in everything happens for a reason.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I am roman catholic, but don't always believe in the beliefs I'm supposed to have.
If you really knew me...You'd know I am very low on self-esteem. I critique myself constantly and always give myself a hard time.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I am crazy. Crazy about everything.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I've thought about suicide, and have had dreams about committing suicide, and written suicide notes. You'd know that if some people hadn't shown up in my life, I might not be typing this right now.
If you really knew me...You'd know I put others before myself. Especially if that person is my world.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I miss my dog Zoe, who died so young, before she could help me when I needed her most.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I am a forgiver, but usually not a forgetter.
*This is all for now, maybe more later*
If you really knew me...You'd know that I don't love my dad, and will never forgive him for tearing me apart during my entire life.
If you really knew me...You'd know that most of my friends here suck, and that I constantly wish that my TCO/ RV friends lived in my town and that I got to see them.
If you really knew me...You'd know I am jealous of my sister.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I wish I could re-do some parts of my life.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I'm shy. I'm awkward about talking and usually don't talk to new people unless they talk to me first. That I am usually the listener, not the talker.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I love riding more than anything. That when I horse back ride, there is nothing that can ruin my mood. I feel like I can do anything, and go anywhere. You'd also know that I haven't gotten on a horse in a year, because my family has been low on money.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I've been the girl who had no friends. The loner who sat at her own lunch table. The girl who had to see her middle school counselor because she was damaged over her old friends ditching her, and being mean to her.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I've gotten over that, but, am still sensitive about it. Because the friends that ditched me, are now some of my closest friends.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I'm a peacemaker. Between my parents, my friends, and family.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I have a boyfriend. But, not just any kind of boyfriend, or relationship. He lives in Wisconsin. Miles away from me, and we have never met. I'm not ashamed because I know he is real, and I know that he will always be here for me. You'll know that I love him, more with each passing day.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I have a big concience. I hate wrong-doing, and always feel guilty for the littlest things.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I believe in everything happens for a reason.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I am roman catholic, but don't always believe in the beliefs I'm supposed to have.
If you really knew me...You'd know I am very low on self-esteem. I critique myself constantly and always give myself a hard time.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I am crazy. Crazy about everything.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I've thought about suicide, and have had dreams about committing suicide, and written suicide notes. You'd know that if some people hadn't shown up in my life, I might not be typing this right now.
If you really knew me...You'd know I put others before myself. Especially if that person is my world.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I miss my dog Zoe, who died so young, before she could help me when I needed her most.
If you really knew me...You'd know that I am a forgiver, but usually not a forgetter.
*This is all for now, maybe more later*
Last edited by HugsAndKrisses(: on Sun Aug 01, 2010 1:51 am; edited 1 time in total
