If you really knew Allie

you'd know that I am insecure. I see other girls, those ones who are just effortlessly pretty and I'm jealous.

you'd know that I have a small group of friends. I'm not that outgoing when it comes to meeting new people.

you'd know that I never had a real best friend. I've been close but they always move away.

you'd know that I am not normally a quiet/shy person. That's just how I am at school because I don't want to be laughed at.

you'd know that I care what other people think of me. Way too much.

you'd know that I am a people pleaser. I don't act like myself around people I don't know because I don't want them to think I'm weird and want them to like me.

you'd know that I have a hard time talking to guys. I have like zero guy friends, it's sad.

you'd know that I am smarter than the majority of my friends. Which makes me feel like I have to act dumber than I am.

you'd know that I don't want to have to care about what people think of me. easier said than done.

you'd know that I feel like I'm waiting for my REAL life to start. how I hate michigan.

you'd know that I am afraid of death. And dying. And what happens after.

you'd know that I ask myself unanswerable questions every day. Like how am I me? Like in this body?

you'd know that I am supposed to be a vegetarian based on my religion but I'm not. My family's not even that religious.

you'd know that I feel like I don't fit in with all my cousins because they all speak another indian language and me and my brother don't.

you'd know that I am scared I'll never fall in love. that I'll never meet somebody.

Allie

What ive recently discovered is that our teenage years are meant to be a little confusing & hard & crazy & that its all about finding ourselves & trying new things & that you should be fearLESS! let go a little, thats how you will get to your "REAL life" & you cant be afraid of dying, cross that bridge when it comes. death is just an experience that is meant for us at a later time so NOW be PRO LIFE! live with no regrets & just go for everything - you never know what might happen! (:

aww seriously that was the sweetest thing I've ever read.
thank you.
and if that is you in your avvie, you're really pretty. xD

youre more than welcome! ive got faith in you, youre a totally awesome person from what ive seen (:

& thanks, it is (:

awhh i can relate to alot of those.
pm me if you ever wanna talk(:
<3

haha thanks.

The unanswerable questions part...I feel like I can relate.
When I was younger I used to wonder if my life was just a dream
life and time confuses me.