if you only knew/

If you really knew Sof. 

You'd know she has generalized anxiety disorder, and no one takes it seriously. 

You'd know she has trichotillomania, and pulls out her eyebrows when she's stressed. 

You'd know that she ignores the only girl she knows that also has both those disorders. 

You'd know that she's horrible at communication. 

You'd know that she has a lot of friends, but she's only particularly close with a couple of them. 

You'd know that a boy has never liked her. And how it brings her down when her friends have that. 

You'd know that she loves to read, but doesn't feel like she has time to. 

You'd know that performing is her favorite thing to do in the world. 

You'd know that she cares about materialistic things way more than her parents think she does. 

You'd know that she isn't, and feels like she will never, be happy with herself. 

You'd know that she's very smart, but doesn't feel the need to comply with higher expectations. 

You'd know that her friends think she's stupid. 

You'd know how badly she can be hurting and not show it. 

You'd know how there is absolutely no one like her, anywhere in the world. 

I love the last statement.
And I really hope you'll find your happiness someday<33

you are not stupid, not matter what anyone says <3
you are beautiful and smart and like you said, special :]
i can relate with some of this. i'm bad at communication too, and only have a few close friends. you're never alone.
love you sof <3