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figured i might as well make one of these .
if you really knew Char ;
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i don't make new friends easily .
though i'm not particularly content with who i'm friends with right now , i don't make friends easily .
i'm like , really shy around people i don't know .
take golf for example .
i've been part of a golf program for about five years or so .
i didn't actually make any friends till probably last year .
while all the other girl made friends with each other and would actually have someone to talk to while we were walking out to the driving range , i'd walk alone .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know that while all of my friends , or most of them , know what they wanna do with their lives in the long run , i have no idea .
not a clue what i really want to do .
or even where i want to go to college .
i have friends who talk about going to a couple of really good colleges in California all the time .
and we were in fifth grade when they started to talk about it .
i , on the other hand , have no idea what i'll major in .
or where i'll go .
maybe new york ?
or maybe stay in california .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i have no true best friend .
i have friends who are the best friends i have .
but not my best friends .
if that makes sense .
i can't tell them everything .
i don't even really talk to them much unless it's during school .
i always feel left out when most of my friends have someone they can tell absolutely everything to .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i don't trust anyone completely .
i used to have three people that i could trust with everything .
in sixth grade .
but we drifted .
a lot .
like to the point where we'll talk every like, maybe two months .
they used to know pretty much everything about me .
and they knew when i just needed someone to talk to .
my friends that i consider best friends ?
we barely talk .
cause we don't hang very often .
and they're never online .
so i never really have someone to talk to .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i am such a procrastinator .
everything i do , i put it off till the last minute .
school projects ?
done the night before it's due .
reading books for english class ?
i skim through it the night before we have a quiz about it .
i don't even actually read the book .
even if they're great books .
like the outsiders .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i'm actually looking forward to going back to school .
the reason for that ?
so i'm not just sitting around at home bored all day .
after the first couple of weeks of summer , i get so tired of it .
and i can't wait for school to come back .
so i actually have something to do.
and i can see friends .
but then i will probably not make many friends .
[see the first IYRKM] .
kaybacktowhatyouweredoing .
-Char
if you really knew Char ;
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i don't make new friends easily .
though i'm not particularly content with who i'm friends with right now , i don't make friends easily .
i'm like , really shy around people i don't know .
take golf for example .
i've been part of a golf program for about five years or so .
i didn't actually make any friends till probably last year .
while all the other girl made friends with each other and would actually have someone to talk to while we were walking out to the driving range , i'd walk alone .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know that while all of my friends , or most of them , know what they wanna do with their lives in the long run , i have no idea .
not a clue what i really want to do .
or even where i want to go to college .
i have friends who talk about going to a couple of really good colleges in California all the time .
and we were in fifth grade when they started to talk about it .
i , on the other hand , have no idea what i'll major in .
or where i'll go .
maybe new york ?
or maybe stay in california .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i have no true best friend .
i have friends who are the best friends i have .
but not my best friends .
if that makes sense .
i can't tell them everything .
i don't even really talk to them much unless it's during school .
i always feel left out when most of my friends have someone they can tell absolutely everything to .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i don't trust anyone completely .
i used to have three people that i could trust with everything .
in sixth grade .
but we drifted .
a lot .
like to the point where we'll talk every like, maybe two months .
they used to know pretty much everything about me .
and they knew when i just needed someone to talk to .
my friends that i consider best friends ?
we barely talk .
cause we don't hang very often .
and they're never online .
so i never really have someone to talk to .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i am such a procrastinator .
everything i do , i put it off till the last minute .
school projects ?
done the night before it's due .
reading books for english class ?
i skim through it the night before we have a quiz about it .
i don't even actually read the book .
even if they're great books .
like the outsiders .
if you really knew me ,
you'd know i'm actually looking forward to going back to school .
the reason for that ?
so i'm not just sitting around at home bored all day .
after the first couple of weeks of summer , i get so tired of it .
and i can't wait for school to come back .
so i actually have something to do.
and i can see friends .
but then i will probably not make many friends .
[see the first IYRKM] .
kaybacktowhatyouweredoing .
-Char
