if you really knew kathy

If you really knew me, you'd know that i'm a jealous nutcase.
I get so jealous really easily.
ex: my best friends spends the night at another friends house and i got jealous.

if you really knew me, you'd know how insecure i am.
I leave the house feeling gross and ugly. always.


If you really knew me, you'd know i don't have a ton of friends.
i have one best friend, and three or four other close friends.
I hate two of the four, and i don't have many other friends other than them.

If you really knew me, you'd know i worry about everything.
No matter what it is, i always worry about it.
I over think things, which causes the worry.


If you really knew me, you'd know that i let people push me around
because i don't like starting fights, so i just keep quiet


If you really knew me, you'd know that i feel like i'm just being a big baby.
people have it worse than me, i need to suck it up.

cant wait:)

Aww, Kathy, you shouldn't worry so much!
Or be so insecure! Because you are so pretty!
But unfortunately, it is human nature to be jealous.
It's a struggle to learn how to control that. :[
But you'll find a way!

<3

ahhh I can relate to everything you said!
especially the jealousy thing! haha
I get so jealous x)

Aww! I hope someday you can feel confident when you walk out the door. I send lots of loving energy to you! (I sound like some church person) And as for the friend thing. It's ok 2-3 friends is all one needs. I have only 2 friends I used to have 3 friends, then two of them went to a different high school and I was with only one, and then another friend came along.

people who have big groups of friends (Like in Glee) don't really work out anyway.

I know exactly how you feel about two things.
the best friend jealous thing
and the being pushed around.

everytime my friend has someone sleep over and not me i'm like
wehtpviuhaewmptrhruamhubgip going crazy.
aaand I don't like fighting either, so ima big pushover(:


but ur awesome, and I LOVE YOU! So stop worrying and....
lmfaoo
ohgosh.
i just finally understood your avatar.
didn't get it until I actually looked closer.
hahaha

you forgot to say "if you really knew me, you'd know that I was secretly voldemort"
justsaying.
ily<33

ohhboy, i can relate to a lot of this.
especially the worrying one!
but you are gorgeous, and i sometimes get jealous of YOU. so there <3

woah
we have alot in common. every single one of those i can relate too.
i get so jealous too like if my friend goes to someone elses house i get jealous
cause i feel left out=/
but you know what i loveee you kathyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy<3
iloveeeeeeeeeeeekathyifreakingloveyouuuu(:
like what i said to julia youre amazing! & gorgeous! & super awesome and nice
and i wish we could all hangout in real life because that would just be amazinglyawesome<3

i love you guys <3

achasiofhsfhas. I love you and your AMAZING.
DOn't ever think your ugly, because your NOT.
and don't ever be jealous, because your the only
one who gets to have me in bed. And thats a big
accomplishment. I really can relate to a lot of these
things, and I just want you to know I'll always be here if you need to talk, because I'll always love you.

I can definitely relate to all this! i love you and you're beautiful <3

marianne- please move to my town and become my best friend.
<3 i love youuuu <3 so much. soososososoososo much.
<3

and lauren- <3 thank youu <3 you're beautiful too <3

kathyyyy. what? you are so pretty. and i get the whole overthinking thing. it sucks. really does. i either listen to music or play tetris to distract myself.

i can totally relate.
i have the most prettiest best friend! i get jelous of her a lot.. she probably has no idea..
but kathy, you should try to stop worrying too much about things, and focus on other positive things. i used to always over think things and then worry so much, but now, i just said try not to, and think about other things.
& Also, Kathyyy i dont get why ur so insecure? your pretty, and u have a good body. And you should know that and always have that in mind, when ur going out.. Life is so much better and funer when ur confident and you dont worry every second of how you look & and what every person thinks of your apperiance.
I used to be like scared to talk to some people, cause i'd be like oh he'd probably not like me.. and actually, the flaws that you see in yourself, most people dont reliaze them! <333
but i really dont understand why ur so insecure.. ur so fricking pretty, and i'm pretty sure that some people probably wouldnt mind being you!!!ILOVEYOOUUUU:)
i wish we could be friends in real lifeeee<3:)

I know... I'm late...

Kathy, why are insecure?? Really? You're, like, really pretty... I mean I get how you feel because I am too, but your really pretty, so if I were you, I wouldn't worry.
Don't be jealous, because I do that too and this is what I say, "Either they don't like me, or it's they're loss. I don't need them"... Try it.
I don't have tons of friends either, but you don't need that many. What are you going to do with them? Imagine your birthday, and you want to go to a resturant with your friends, but you can't invite everyone. Big groups NEVER work out. Trust me. I do it alll the time.
Stop worrying, because there's nothing to worry about. Really.
Don't let people push you around because it's going to end up bad for you. Stand up for your self. If whoever is pushing you around is your friend, and they get mad that you are doing something, blow them off. Friends shouldn't care.
And everyone wallows in their own self pity... As long as you don't go to 50 people saying whats wrong with your life, your fine....
SMILE!