if you really knew me, -erika.

if you really knew me,
you'd know that im actually pretty shy around people i dont know.
i wish i wasnt but i am.

if you really knew me,
you'd know that i feel used alot.
my best friend sometimes acts like a bitch to me.
but i dont want to loose any friends so i just let them step all over me.
unless its online then im not afraid to say how i feel, but i cant do it in person.

if you really knew me you'd know that cheerleading is my life.
ive been doing it since i was little.

if you really knew me you would know that
my dog died a few months ago and i still miss him
all the time=/

if you really knew me you'd know that i make stupid
mistakes alot. like getting drunk.

if you really knew me,
you'd know that i try to be better i try not to be like everyone else
but somehow i always end up giving in to when people pressure me.

if you really knew me, you'd know that were loosing our house
because we cant afford it and i see my friends get all this nice stuff and it makes me want it too.

if you really knew me, you'd know that im scared of growing up.
another thing is i hate when people are mad at me. i dont like it.
kind of like right now everyone on here pretty much hates me it sucks=/

if you really knew me you'd know im kind of a baby
i cry alot. for example the other day i cried bymyself in my car for about an hour.
=/

if you reallyyy knew me you'd know that im not that bad of a person
i try to be nice to people.